✌🏼On Sheetrock And Vertigo
Musings From A Dizzy Disciple-Maker
I’ve pretty much been flat on my back for a couple of days. Vertigo is no fun. I immediately prayed for and believed for healing. My circumstances don’t change the truth that God promised healing through Jesus. Faith is the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things not seen. I am healed. Just haven’t seen it yet.
It’s been an interesting, mostly bedridden, experience. Lots of time to think and pray. Some “in my flesh” spiraling thoughts too. In Jesus, I am a born again child of God, but sometimes I don’t see it until… Hello new creature.
Some of the spiraling thoughts were about our life and ministry situation. It would be easy to get discouraged and jaded. Though far from perfect, we have literally been willing to give up everything to follow Jesus and make disciples that make disciples. This last year has been brutal financially and logistically. We are still “living in a van down by the river.”
In the past few weeks, the most house renovation progress has been made since we started this in February 2025. At that point we were looking at a few walls, ceilings, electrical and plumbing repairs. But the more we dug in, the worse it got. Every wall and ceiling had to come out. Down to studs.
Last week I did a little dance seeing the first sheet of new sheetrock go up! We now have one room fully sheet-rocked with more scheduled to happen this week. We still need a lot, but it’s happening!
As I’ve dizzily pondered life and ministry I realized that the majority of progress, supplies and work has come from new people I’ve discipled in this area. Not from an organization. Disciples. And they don’t even all go to the same church.
While we are excited about being part of a nearby church (I’ll be sharing more about that later), it seems that more than ever our calling, purpose and focus is clear. Make disciples. Teach them in small organic groups in both public places and in homes. And church. Not either or. The Today.Church infrastructure will also be part of that, we believe.
With God’s help, I believe it won’t be long until we can host some of those groups in our own home! Just as I know this vertigo is temporary, so too is our housing dilemma. And I know my God shall supply all our needs according to His riches in Glory by Christ Jesus.
But truth be told, everything feels like spiritual vertigo right now. Disciple-making fruit is ever growing, but stable provision… not so much. We have seen so many miracles, even recently. Kingdom first works! Yet manna is intended to be temporary and living miracle to miracle can be exhausting.
However, my commitment remains to keep seeking the Kingdom first and to remain faithful. Even in our present situation we are among the richest humans on the planet. There is much to be thankful for!
While my flesh thinks, make a wishlist, start a GoFundMe, or beg for help–my spirit is thinking about the needs of others. Paul says it this way.
Philippians 2:3-4 (NET)
3 Instead of being motivated by selfish ambition or vanity, each of you should, in humility, be moved to treat one another as more important than yourself. 4 Each of you should be concerned not only about your own interests, but about the interests of others as well.
In particular, a sweet lady that we met after moving here. Leah Walker has both an amazing testimony and an incredible commitment to follow Jesus no matter what. She houses and disciples women in her own home. Many that were homeless or straight out of addiction or jail have been welcomed and loved into miraculous transformation. The ministry is called “From The Streets To The Streets”.
She lives miracle to miracle too, and right now needs to come up with help for rent. If that tugs on your heart strings like mine, will you join me in investing in this ministry? Here’s the link:
Thank you for your prayerful consideration to help Leah’s ministry. Her home needs a lot of work too.
Just like having vertigo doesn’t change the truth about God’s promises of healing, this little spiritual vertigo I’ve experienced doesn’t change the truth either. By faith, we already have a completed house and the resources we need to continue making disciples daily! We just can’t see it yet.
Over the past, almost a year now, I’ve come back to these verses in faith… trusting this process to God. Not in desperation but in hope, evidenced by the love He has poured into our hearts thanks to Jesus!
Romans 5:3-5 (NET)
3 Not only this, but we also rejoice in sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, 4 and endurance, character, and character, hope. 5 And hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts through the Holy Spirit who was given to us.
What has God promised in your life that you can’t see yet?